I will there be light.
Today we are considering the will you share with God. This is not the same as the ego’s idle wishes, out of which darkness and nothingness arise. The will you share with God has all the power of creation in it. The ego’s idle wishes are unshared, and therefore have no power at all. Its wishes are not idle in the sense that they can make a world of illusions in which your belief can be very strong. But they are idle indeed in terms of creation. They make nothing that is real.
Idle wishes and grievances are partners or co-makers in picturing the world you see. The wishes of the ego gave rise to it, and the ego’s need for grievances, which are necessary to maintain it, peoples it with figures that seem to attack you and call for “righteous” judgment. These figures become the middlemen the ego employs to traffic in grievances. They stand between your awareness and your brothers’ reality. Beholding them, you do not know your brothers or your Self.
Your will is lost to you in this strange bartering, in which guilt is traded back and forth, and grievances increase with each exchange. Can such a world have been created by the Will the Son of God shares with his Father? Did God create disaster for His Son? Creation is the Will of Both together. Would God create a world that kills Himself?
Today we will try once more to reach the world that is in accordance with your will. The light is in it because it does not oppose the Will of God. It is not Heaven, but the light of Heaven shines on it. Darkness has vanished. The ego’s idle wishes have been withdrawn. Yet the light that shines upon this world reflects your will, and so it must be in you that we will look for it.
Your picture of the world can only mirror what is within. The source of neither light nor darkness can be found without. Grievances darken your mind, and you look out on a darkened world. Forgiveness lifts the darkness, reasserts your will, and lets you look upon a world of light. We have repeatedly emphasized that the barrier of grievances is easily passed, and cannot stand between you and your salvation. The reason is very simple. Do you really want to be in hell? Do you really want to weep and suffer and die?
Forget the ego’s arguments, which seek to prove all this is really Heaven. You know it is not so. You cannot want this for yourself. There is a point beyond which illusions cannot go. Suffering is not happiness, and it is happiness you really want. Such is your will in truth. And so salvation is your will as well. You want to succeed in what we are trying to do today. We undertake it with your blessing and your glad accord.
We will succeed today if you remember that you want salvation for yourself. You want to accept God’s plan because you share in it. You have no will that can really oppose it, and you do not want to do so. Salvation is for you. Above all else, you want the freedom to remember Who you really are. Today it is the ego that stands powerless before your will. Your will is free, and nothing can prevail against it.
Therefore, we undertake the exercises for today in happy confidence, certain that we will find what it is your will to find, and remember what it is your will to remember. No idle wishes can detain us, nor deceive us with an illusion of strength. Today let your will be done, and end forever the insane belief that it is hell in place of Heaven that you choose.
We will begin our longer practice periods with the recognition that God’s plan for salvation, and only His, is wholly in accord with your will. It is not the purpose of an alien power, thrust upon you unwillingly. It is the one purpose here on which you and your Father are in perfect accord. You will succeed today, the time appointed for the release of the Son of God from hell and from all idle wishes. His will is now restored to his awareness. He is willing this very day to look upon the light in him and be saved.
After reminding yourself of this, and determining to keep your will clearly in mind, tell yourself with gentle firmness and quiet certainty:
I will there be light. Let me behold the light that reflects
God’s Will and mine.
Then let your will assert itself, joined with the power of God and united with your Self. Put the rest of the practice period under Their guidance. Join with Them as They lead the way.
In the shorter practice periods, again make a declaration of what you really want. Say:
I will there be light. Darkness is not my will.
This should be repeated several times an hour. It is most important, however, to apply today’s idea in this form immediately you are tempted to hold a grievance of any kind. This will help you let your grievances go, instead of cherishing them and hiding them in darkness.
What Jesus tells us here that I know to be true.
- The world I see is not real. It is made by my idle wishes. It is in my mind, and only there. It is a perfect reflection of my thoughts.
- This world feels real because I want it to feel real. But that doesn’t make it real; it only makes me believe it is real.
- I did this by making a separate will, a will that appears to be separate from God and from all other aspects of my self.
- I have a will that I share with God. It is the same as His Will. It is my true will and cannot be destroyed, though it can be disregarded.
- Grievances are attractive to this separate will, and necessary to it.
- Grievances call for “righteous” judgment. They keep me from knowing who my brother is in reality, and hide my reality from myself.
- Grievances hide the light that I am, but can only do so if I choose to allow it.
- While I choose a separate will the world will seem to act on me, but this is an illusion. It cannot do anything to me.
- I see myself as guilty. I see each one of my brothers as guilty. And with each exchange of guilt, I increase the grievances I hold in my heart.
- This world I see cannot have been created by my true Will, by the Will I share with God. It is not Love and God is Love.
- There is a real world, a world that reflects God. It is not ultimately true, but is a reflection of truth.
- I can see this world, and live in this world. It is just as possible to experience the real world as it is to experience the ego world.
- I can do this now, right this moment.
- It is actually my will that allows me to see the real world. The darkness of the ego world comes not from the world, but from the mind, and the light of the real world comes from the same place. And which I see is entirely up to me.
- I want to let all grievances go. I want to see only the real world.
So what is it that prevents me from experiencing the world I see from the perspective of my true will? Why am I not doing it now? It seems I am still attracted to guilt and to grievances. I can hardly believe it is true, but here I am. I still get pulled into stories. I still feel the draw of the grievance. I guess I am still afraid to let it all go. I think once I walk through that door, the door will disappear and there will be no going back. I am afraid to make that final decision. Jeez. How can that be?
On the other hand, I used to feel helpless and hopeless at this admission, and completely lost. Now I know that I am doing this to myself and I know I will stop. Now I just stay aware of my thoughts and as I see that I want to be angry or make someone guilty, when I am afraid or sad, I watch it at least as much as I feel it. This detachment is making it easier to choose differently. I want to succeed and so I must. It is my true Will to do so and nothing can stand against my Will because it is the Will of God.
Here is what I have observed. When I am contemplating dark thoughts, the world I see is dark. It is filled with danger and sorrow and pain. Everyone is my enemy. Even those I say I love serve as repositories for my guilt. The guilt is in my mind, it is a filter through which every word and action passes. And as it passes through my vision it is stained by that guilt, and what I see with my eyes and hear with my ears is guilt, regardless of what was meant. It is an endless cycle and its source is my mind, therefore the solution is to heal my mind.
Here is what is working for me. The mind is healed through forgiveness. I forgive the world I see and all the bodies with which I have peopled it. I forgive the belief that I am guilty, and I will automatically forgive the belief that my brothers are guilty, because I am the source of all the guilt I see. I know that I can do this because I have done so. I have wanted freedom more than I wanted anyone to take my guilt. Once that is my desire, all the darkness fades away and I see my brother as he is, shining in his innocence. It is truly a miracle.
Here is what I do today. Today I will let my will assert itself, joined with the power of God and united with my Self. How can I fail? I am not doing this alone and as I say that I realize that I cannot do it alone because I am not alone. I am one with God and one with all my brothers. The light becomes brighter in my awareness as I think of the power that is mine through this union of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. “I will there be light. Darkness is not my will.”
“I will there be light. Let me behold the light that reflects God’s Will and mine.” Here is the picture in my mind. As a thought of failure, of doubt or fear comes into my mind, I see myself turn to it. I see it with the brilliant light of truth and the dark thought disappears under the intensity of the light in my mind. Such is the power of my desire made whole. I want nothing the world has to offer. I want only what is in accordance with the Will of God.