VIII. Patience

1 Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait, and wait without anxiety. Patience is natural to the teacher of God. All he sees is certain outcome, at a time perhaps unknown to him as yet, but not in doubt. The time will be as right as is the answer. And this is true for everything that happens now or in the future. The past as well held no mistakes; nothing that did not serve to benefit the world, as well as him to whom it seemed to happen. Perhaps it was not understood at the time. Even so, the teacher of God is willing to reconsider all his past decisions, if they are causing pain to anyone. Patience is natural to those who trust. Sure of the ultimate interpretation of all things in time, no outcome already seen or yet to come can cause them fear.

 

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Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait, and wait without anxiety.

There is more than one message in this paragraph. The first thing I note is that I can afford to wait patiently without anxiety because I am certain of the outcome. I know I used to feel anxious about my spiritual progress and because I was apprehensive, I was impatient to see something happen, something that proved I was moving forward.

I used to wait anxiously for my awakening, wondering why it had not happened yet. This paragraph in the Course helped me to change that. Now I look forward to every manifestation of a healed mind, but I’m not concerned about it. I know that it is all happening in perfect timing, and that in the end, it is inevitable that I awaken, so no worries.

The time will be as right as is the answer. And this is true for everything that happens now or in the future.

I also see that as my mind heals I become happier and more peaceful and that is, after all, what I am aiming for. So I enjoy what I have now. It would be a shame to miss this part of my spiritual journey because I was always looking ahead for the next part and worried it had not happened yet. It also helps me to remember that everything, and I mean everything, is in my best interests. Everything brings me closer to awakening if that is how I use it.

The past as well held no mistakes; nothing that did not serve to benefit the world, as well as him to whom it seemed to happen.

Two ideas in this sentence are important for me to consider. The past held no mistakes. This is a lesson that I resisted for the longest time. I held grievances against what others did to me in the past and what happened to me in the past. I held on for dear life as if these grievances were my salvation.

This resistance to happiness and peace is pretty hilarious as I see it now. The past was perfect for my continued awakening, and if it seemed painful, well, even the pain was motivating. It led me to be more open to another way to see. If the pain seemed to linger, it taught me to let go more quickly.

The second part of that sentence, nothing that did not serve to benefit the world, as well as him to whom it seemed to happen, helps me to remember that not only did it serve me in my personal story; it served all of us, the entire Sonship as a whole. As I learn and change and grow, so does the Sonship.

We share the same mind and when the mind is healed anyplace in the Sonship, we all profit. The less I am attached to the idea of identifying with a personal self, the more it means to me that the story of Myron is instrumental in awakening us.

Perhaps it was not understood at the time. Even so, the teacher of God is willing to reconsider all his past decisions, if they are causing pain to anyone.

I always did the best I could at the time with what I had to work with. But, in my ignorance, I also probably made hurtful decisions. What can I do about that now? Did I make past decisions that are causing pain to someone? I am asking the Holy Spirit this question. I am also asking what I can do to make amends.

I know from past experience that sometimes I can come forward with an apology or a kind word. I also know that sometimes that is not appropriate or possible, but I can still make amends. In those cases, here is the prayer I use.

From T 5

Say this to yourself as sincerely as you can, remembering that the Holy Spirit will respond fully to your slightest invitation:

I must have decided wrongly, because I am not at peace.
I made the decision myself, but I can also decide otherwise.
I want to decide otherwise, because I want to be at peace.
I do not feel guilty, because the Holy Spirit will undo all the consequences of my wrong decision if I will let Him.
I choose to let Him, by allowing Him to decide for God for me.

Sure of the ultimate interpretation of all things in time, no outcome already seen or yet to come can cause them fear.

And this last sentence is why I need not fear any outcome, not one from the past or one yet to come. All things are in my best interests and as I learn to detach from the story, I am able to step back and see the larger picture. I can see that much happens I do not presently understand, but I can trust that the final outcome is one of love and happiness.

It might seem difficult at times, but I am not alone on my path. I have a whole team of unseen helpers, the Holy Spirit, Jesus, angels, and guides. They are all standing on the sidelines waiting for me to call them in. I can just imagine their reaction when I stop trying to do things on my own and call out to them. They are probably shouting hallelujahs that I finally let them help me. As my mind continues to heal, my certainty and my trust grow stronger and fear falls away.


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