Today I let Christ’s vision look upon
All things for me and judge them not, but give
Each one a miracle of love instead.
So would I liberate all things I see, and give to them the freedom that I seek. For thus do I obey the law of love, and give what I would find and make my own. It will be given me, because I have chosen it as the gift I want to give. Father, Your gifts are mine. Each one that I accept gives me a miracle to give. And giving as I would receive, I learn Your healing miracles belong to me.
Our Father knows our needs. He gives us grace to meet them all. And so we trust in Him to send us miracles to bless the world, and heal our minds as we return to Him.
Today, everything I look at is going to be loved. That is, I will see it as innocent and perfect regardless of what the body’s eyes show me. Well, that’s the plan, anyway. Very likely what is going to happen is that I am going to notice that sometimes I am judging and then I am going to practice this lesson.
I was conversing with Cate Grieves about this idea last night. We did this on her page as I worked out what a passage meant. Here are some things she shared with me.
“the image is projected from “my” confused thinking – not his. Everything is in “my” mind and can only be corrected there. See no bodies – just pure innocent spirit. The course says that there are no people “out there” they are all being projected by the unconscious guilt. Seeing the innocence heals the misperceptions of the ego mind.”
What I love about this statement is the simplicity of it. It cuts through the story and goes to the heart of the only problem we have. We think we separated from God and so are guilty. From the guilt we project the world we see with all its bodies and all these stories that all end in death.
So, really, the stories and the bodies are not the problems, they are the effect of the problems. They are just guilt projected outward and seen as if they are real and happening and matter. This keeps us very busy for eons of time, and so we never get around to addressing the real problem. In this way, the ego mind does an excellent job of keeping the story going.
There is a place in the Course where Jesus tells us that the ego wants to kill us. I heard Nouk Sanchez say that the ego wants us dead before we can wake up to its plan and choose love instead. Then we just turn around and here we are back in another story that we spend a lifetime trying to fix just so we can die and do it all again.
So far it has been working, but Jesus is giving us the way out of the endless loop of false thinking that keeps us focused on the story rather than the escape from the story. The problem we see everywhere, regardless of the form it takes, is guilt. The solution is love. It is choosing to see the innocence behind the story.
It is amazing to me as I see how often I see guilt rather than innocence. It pervades every story in my life. I suppose I shouldn’t be surprised since this is the way I have used the ego mind to keep me in the dark, and, creator that I am, it is only natural that I would have done a good job of it. For eons, I have looked for and found guilt. I think of it as looking through a guilt filter so that everything I see looks like guilt.
Here is an example. I have a plumbing leak and I need to get it fixed. I have been putting it off because I don’t feel competent to do it myself and I am not sure who to call to fix it. I guess I could call a plumber but it would be really expensive to do so and I’m pretty sure I know someone who could do it for me.
I thought about my son-in-law who has fixed things for me before. I was going to send him a text and ask him if he could find the time, but my daughter mentioned he was changing an engine in a car this weekend and was totally absorbed in that job. I didn’t feel right asking him to drop everything and working on my stuff so I didn’t send him the text.
This morning when I got up, I saw the leak was worse and I started worrying about the cabinet under the sink being damaged. The first feeling I noticed following the fear, was resentment that my son-in-law didn’t fix this for me. Now mind you, he doesn’t even know about the problem, and certainly, even if he did know about it, he is not obligated to do this for me. But the ego always sees guilt. It’s answer to all problems is to discover who is guilty.
Little guilt thoughts like this show up in my mind all the time it seems. The good news is that I mostly don’t believe them, and when I do, I look at them with Holy Spirit. It seems like they always stem from fear, just like the plumbing problem was causing me fear and the ego’s automatic response to guilt is to find someone to blame.
Here is another response from Cate to my questions.
“that’s how My mind was healed through practicing this. Seeing the face of Christ in all our brothers heals my mind back to pure Christ mind. The mind knows no difference between out there and in here. If all are seen as perfect and innocent, then my mind IS perfect and innocent and the ego falls away gently. The ego cannot exist in a mind of innocent perception.”
So I perceived my son-in-law as guilty, and the solution is to recognize this was just an ego response to fear, and that he is completely innocent. I do the same with all these little ego guilt bombs. Instead of letting them explode into something messy, I disarm them with the truth and they just fizzle out. Sometimes it is a little harder because I have projected a better guilt story and it really looks like someone is guilty.
In a situation like that, I can point to their behavior as proof of guilt. But then I remember that the guilt came first and what I am seeing is not reality, but just a projection of that guilt. This reminder can sometimes derail the ego attempt to reinforce guilt in the mind. Sometimes I get caught up in my most recent projection of guilt and then I have to pull myself out of it.
But all of it is good practice, whether it is easy to do or whether it feels difficult. The point is, there is nothing out there to forgive, and nothing out there to correct. There is only my mind to be healed. I ask to see with true perception and the more often I do this, the easier it is to go there very quickly. Here is how Cate says she did it.
“The guilt is undone by
1)holding the perfection and innocence of all brothers.
2) truly realizing I am not a body but pure spirit. Perfect whole and complete.
It needs to be practiced before it becomes fully known as a truth by the mind.”
Sometimes I feel discouraged when I notice, yet again, that I am judging and seeing guilt, and worse, believing in the guilt. But as Cate says, seeing the innocence is something we need to practice. Without practice it is just words in the mind, something understood intellectually, maybe a concept that sounds like something we want, but it does not become truly known without the practice. Realizing this, I can practice all day, and be glad of the opportunities.