I can be free of suffering today.
Father, I thank You for today, and for the freedom I am certain it will bring. This day is holy, for today Your Son will be redeemed. His suffering is done. For he will hear Your Voice directing him to find Christ’s vision through forgiveness, and be free forever from all suffering. Thanks for today, my Father. I was born into this world but to achieve this day, and what it holds in joy and freedom for Your holy Son and for the world he made, which is released along with him today.
Be glad today! Be glad! There is no room for anything but joy and thanks today. Our Father has redeemed His Son this day. Not one of us but will be saved today. Not one who will remain in fear, and none the Father will not gather to Himself, awake in Heaven in the Heart of Love.
Again and again I am reminded that forgiveness is my way to salvation. Today I am reminded that I can be free now. It is only my insistence that there is something more valuable than perfect freedom that keeps me chained to my own suffering. Again and yet again I am astounded at my refusal to see the obvious. As I read the lesson for today it is clear to me that I want to be free, that forgiveness is simple and easy and that I can do this. Then, as the old joke goes, I get out of bed. All during the day I am presented with forgiveness opportunities and sometimes I choose against forgiveness as insane as that is.
I am very grateful for lessons like this one which reminds me of my purpose and helps me to get back in touch with the truth. I really can be free of suffering and I can do so now. I may not be ready to do so, but it helps me to recognize that if I suffer it is a result of a choice I made and not something that just happened, and certainly not a punishment. Suffering, like everything in my life, is the result of my own desires being played out for me. But if suffering is a choice I made, then clearly salvation is a choice I could make instead.
I asked the Holy Spirit if there was anything else He would have me be aware of today and the thought that arose is that I not be tempted to judge myself by what seems to be happening in my life. Holy Spirit, could You talk to me about this?
Holy Spirit: Life continues to play itself out, Myron. Sometimes you look at the story, judge it as less than acceptable and then decide you are hopeless and will never wake up. Look at the story, my friend, and recognize it is only meaningless. The story is not what causes suffering, but rather your reaction to the story is the cause of all pain you seem to experience. Look with Me at your reaction to what is happening, and let Me show you another way to see it.
Me: Thank you, Holy Spirit. I do forget that sometimes. I look at my life, see myself running out of money or being sick, and think that this is bad and therefore I must be bad. I don’t think of it in those exact words because they don’t fit in my “spiritual” concept of what I should be. But basically that is what I am doing at times.
Holy Spirit: Yes that is true. Now think of those times when you do not react to your circumstances. How does that look?
Me: Ok, I have had times when I was sick and I just noticed how my body felt. I didn’t look for someone or something to blame. I didn’t think how much I hated being sick. I didn’t feel like I had done something wrong or that I was being punished. In fact, last night I noticed that I was sneezing and not feeling well. I thought about how the body almost never gets sick anymore and that when it does, the sickness quickly passes and I was grateful.
The ego thoughts were that it would be bad if I got sick this week because of the Christmas party coming up and that I shouldn’t have held my granddaughter because she has a cold. I noticed those thoughts and let them go. I did not react to them. I noticed the ego says that I cannot be close to awakening if the body still gets every little thing that comes along. (The ego exaggerates as I don’t get every little thing.) I ignored that thought, too, knowing it is a lie.
Holy Spirit: That is true, Myron. The ego wants to cling to specialness. It would have you believe you are its story. It would also have you focus on all the error thoughts and would dismiss your triumphs as insignificant. Spend this day noticing your every accomplishment. Allow your holiness to fill your mind and the littleness of the ego will fall away. Do not be distracted by the story, but rather notice your reactions to the story. I will correct all that is misguided, and together we will celebrate your achievements.