My Father gives all power unto me.
The Son of God is limitless. There are no limits on his strength, his peace, his joy, nor any attributes his Father gave in his creation. What he wills with his Creator and Redeemer must be done. His holy will can never be denied, because his Father shines upon his mind, and lays before it all the strength and love in earth and Heaven. I am he to whom all this is given. I am he in whom the power of my Father’s Will abides.
Your Will can do all things in me, and then extend to all the world as well through me. There is no limit on Your Will. And so all power has been given to Your Son.
I have been focused on the truth that I am completely responsible for everything as I experience it. When I am tempted to see myself a victim, my mind goes back to this truth; how can I be a victim if I am completely responsible for everything in my life?
Occasionally I still get so caught up in some fear thought and before you know it I have weaved all sorts of stories around it. I am then frightened, guilty and miserable. I want to stop and I try to stop, but it feels like I cannot. It can be very frustrating and my inability to stop my mind from weaving more stories around this core of fear just increases the fear.
Then I remember that I did this to myself. I may not remember doing it and I may not feel like I did it, but I did it. I made this. With help, I can easily extricate myself, but first I must realize that it was not done to me. I am not victim; I am maker. Within me is the Guide Who will help me redirect the power of my mind to create lovingly. I only have to want that direction.
From the position of the ego-created self, I cannot extricate myself from this error because it is part of the miscreation that I deny my power. However, if I am simply willing to shift my focus, I am no longer looking with the ego at all that happens. I am looking with the Holy Spirit, the Guide within my mind. I am no longer looking from a position of victimhood, but from the position of power given me of God.
It’s funny, really. Nothing changes and yet everything changes. I used my innate, God-given power, to make a world of chaos, then to deliberately forget I made it. Now I bow down to my creation and say “Oh please don’t hurt me anymore.”
In an instant, I see the absurdity of this position and using the same power, I call upon the Truth within me to look with new eyes on all I made, and to laugh. I am flexing my muscles, learning to express my power to be as God created me, not the imagined separate being I dreamed up.
This power is real. The power of God abides in my mind. Yesterday I visualized this power flowing through me, not directed by me, but flowing through me. I imagined I stopped trying to direct it to be something it is not and simply allowed it to be itself.
I imagined the joy and the bliss of being a channel for God’s pure Love. I have imprisoned my mind for such a long time that I was unable to imagine what pure love might create. But I know that Knowledge is in my mind. To free it, I only have to change my mind about what I thought I wanted instead.
I need only notice the errors and look to the part of my mind in which the Voice for God resides to have them reinterpreted. My part is so simple and every day of practice makes it easier and easier. My joy overflows at the thought of another day walking steadily on toward the truth.
All of this did get much easier. I still have ego thoughts and sometimes I become interested in them and I have this little drama to deal with, but life is so much more peaceful now. But this morning when I was reading this lesson I noticed a disturbing thought in my mind. It occurred when I read this sentence. “What he wills with his Creator and Redeemer must be done.”
The thought was that in order for me to have this power Jesus talks about, I can only will what my Creator wants me to will. I felt resistance to this. I thought, how unfair that I am given unlimited power, then limited in its use. To use it I must only will what my Father Wills.
This thought disturbed me because I think maybe it was this kind of thinking that got me in this illusion to begin with. Maybe this is what I was thinking when I decided to strike out on my own, do my own creating without any guidance, something outside the Will of God.
I brought all this to Jesus and asked for his help in seeing clearly. My thinking has brought me to uncertainty and doubt, which makes me fearful. Jesus, what is it that you want to understand about this?
Jesus: The idea that you could have a will separate from God is the illusion. There is no other will to have. You can only pretend to have another will and then pretend to create from that will. This makes an impossible world, a world opposite in every way to Reality.
Think of this. God’s Will is perfect peace, unconditional love, blissful joy and absolute freedom. What could you want that is better than this? Why would you want the opposite of this? You have that opposite now. Are you happy with it? Are you happy with love that shifts and changes? Are you happy with peace that is yours only when certain things occur and those things are out of your control? Are you happy to be in fear and to be driven by guilt?
The fear of losing all this and returning your mind to its Divine state was just an ego response to your awakening. The ego mind is the desire to be less than you are. You made it and so you believe in it, but you have asked that it be undone for you and so it is, all in accordance with your will. The resistance is the resistance of an ego mind that is made of fear and guilt and so has no other response to offer. It has nothing to do with your true mind and your true desires. It is not you, just a thought form you made.
Dear Sister, you do not want to be free from God, free to make unlike God, free to have a will that is not the only Will in existence. It is the ego that wants this. The ego is a mental construct; it is not you. Do not be afraid of what you made. It has no power of itself. Do not be afraid of the thoughts that come from it. They have no power. You have played in that field of make-believe and now that you have seen the effects of doing so, you are naturally ready to return to the Kingdom, to your Father, to your creations, to your Family.