II. The End of Doubt, P 2
2 Do not be concerned with time, and fear not the instant of holiness that will remove all fear. For the instant of peace is eternal because it is without fear. It will come, being the lesson God gives you, through the Teacher He has appointed to translate time into eternity. Blessed is God’s Teacher, Whose joy it is to teach God’s holy Son his holiness. His joy is not contained in time. His teaching is for you because His joy is yours. Through Him you stand before God’s altar, where He gently translates hell into Heaven. For it is only in Heaven that God would have you be.
I cannot, in my present state, understand eternity. That’s OK. I don’t have to understand it. It is not my part to understand eternity, nor is it my part to end time. The Holy Spirit, God’s Teacher, will translate time into eternity for me. The way I understand what is being said here is that in an instant, a very holy instant, fear will fall away with all doubt, all conflict, all uncertainty, and I will know peace.
It is interesting that Jesus says not to fear the instant of holiness that will remove all fear. Why would I be afraid of the holy instant? It offers me everything I say I want. I don’t understand this, but I accept it. I think this is why we must spend some time letting go of the false beliefs before the holy instant comes. For some time now I have been letting go of guilt and I have discovered that this false belief is deeply rooted in my consciousness.
This morning, I was doing a guided meditation on love and it began by saying that meditation takes us within. I want to go within and so I was happy to think of that, but I discovered a guilty thought guarding that door. It was an old parental guilt that I would have thought would be weak and powerless from having been looked at so many times. Yet, there it was, barring my way.
So I let the meditation have me as I offered love to that thought. It didn’t seem to be doing anything at the time, and I actually thought that this encounter prevented the meditation from being effective. But now, as I sit here writing about it, I discover that I can’t find the details of the guilty thought that just moments ago was torturing me. Maybe love dissolved it.
The mind has many thoughts of guilt and these thoughts cause us to fear the holy instant. Guilty thoughts make us feel unworthy of such blissful joy as comes with Awakening, and we become afraid to approach it. I think I am impatient for that moment, but perhaps I should be grateful for the slow process of undoing that comes before it. I don’t need to be impatient or concerned that it has not yet come. I am assured that it will.