My heart is beating in the peace of God.
Surrounding me is all the life that God created in His Love. It calls to me in every heartbeat and in every breath; in every action and in every thought. Peace fills my heart, and floods my body with the purpose of forgiveness. Now my mind is healed, and all I need to save the world is given me. Each heartbeat brings me peace; each breath infuses me with strength. I am a messenger of God, directed by His Voice, sustained by Him in love, and held forever quiet and at peace within His loving Arms. Each heartbeat calls His Name, and every one is answered by His Voice, assuring me I am at home in Him.
Let me attend Your Answer, not my own. Father, my heart is beating in the peace the Heart of Love created. It is there and only there that I can be at home.
It seems lately that I often cry as I read the lessons, and again this morning I cried as I read this. Just imagine, all around me is the life God created out of His Love! I could be experiencing this, I could know this love around me and in me, flooding me with its presence. I could be at perfect peace at all times and with no concern about what is seemingly happening around me. I have this as I let go of my beliefs in guilt and fear. So why not now? It is available to me, so I want it now!
Yesterday as I did my work with Spirit I began to feel this. And as I went into my day, I couldn’t help but notice how friendly everyone was. It is like they were just pleased to have passed me on the sidewalk and couldn’t help smiling. It happened so often that it was surreal. It felt like a message from Jesus telling me to notice what it is like when I make the decision not to attack and not to defend.
This morning’s lesson seems to point to my experience from yesterday. It was like a little taste of feeling God’s Love through all of creation. It was absolutely delicious! Today, if I forget that I no longer need to defend myself because there is nothing to defend against, and if attack thoughts show up in my mind I pray to remember today’s lesson. Right behind these fearful thought images I have projected into my life, is the Love of God all around me. There is only what God created and if I see anything that is not His Love, I must surely be dreaming. Wake me up, God!
Today I will be sustained by the Love of God. These are the words I am writing down and bringing with me in my Daytimer and in my heart to remind me what is mine for the asking.
“Each heartbeat brings me peace; each breath infuses me with strength. I am a messenger of God, directed by His Voice, sustained by Him in love, and held forever quiet and at peace within His loving Arms. Each heartbeat calls His Name, and every one is answered by His Voice, assuring me I am at home in Him.”
And what I know is that Jesus did not write these words because they are pretty. He wrote them because they are true, and they are true even when I deny them with my actions and words and my ego thoughts. This is why I can live a life of peace and joy and love right now, not in some imagined future. For the last few days I have been reminding myself of the truth and beauty that is available to me.
I have been more vigilant for the tendency to fall back into ego thinking than I ever have been before. I then ask that those thoughts be removed from my mind. I ask that I know God, know Love, instead. This is my prayer and all true prayers are answered so I expect the peace of God. I expect to know myself in the Heart of God.
The following are postings from previous years.
Holy Spirit, please be with me today as I seem to enter into the world of work and relationships. Help me to remember that I am not the fearful and helpless person the ego would have me believe in, but rather I am part of God’s creation. The only difference in the two versions of myself is that in the ego version I have forgotten what is. Thank you for reminding me that I don’t have to do anything to “become” a messenger of God. I need to simply remember that I am His messenger.
Holy Spirit, I have been afraid of my true Self, afraid to be the powerful and holy Son of God, instead clinging to the ego belief that seems to save me from responsibility for the world I made. I cannot believe in that self anymore, and yet I am afraid to claim my real Self. What an impossible place to be. I am willing to step back as ego and to step up as Spirit. I am willing to be empty of all I think I know so that You can fill me with the truth. I am willing to wait for Your guidance rather than to decide for myself. I am willing to change my mind. I give you my willingness.
When I remember who I am I feel the Source of all that is. I feel it in me and all around me. I feel that God Is and there is nothing else. Then I fall back to sleep and dream of lack, and pain, and guilt. It is my deepest desire to stay awake. Please help me to recognize all other desires that distract me from the one thing that matters. I am willing to give you these desires and to allow you to show me how to see them differently. I look forward to this day as another opportunity to awaken.
I am especially aware of You in every person I meet. I am in awe of the transformation I experience as I look with Christ Vision on my brothers. Dear God, have they always been so beautiful? Evidently so. My prayer today is that I not be distracted by my stories of them, that my vision remain clear. Thank you, Holy Spirit.
Yesterday I was living this and loving the day and everyone in it. I was looking at people with real interest and without judgment. Then I noticed this peace begin to dissolve. At first I didn’t put it together with anything I was believing, I just noticed I didn’t feel as good as before. I noticed that I had said something I regretted and was having trouble letting go of the regret.
I left that situation without doing more than noticing it. I was driving and popped a CD into my player. It was from A Thousand Names for Joy by Byron Katie. She said:
“Who would you be in people’s presence without, for example, the story that anyone should care about you, ever: You would be love itself. When you believe the myth that people should care, you’re too needy to care about people or about yourself. The experience of love can’t come from anyone else; it can come only from inside you.”
I felt a little tickle in my mind as I listened to this. I knew it applied in some way to my life that day, but I had shopping to do and put it out of my mind. But life is generous and when I fail to get its message it sends it to me again. I really wasn’t enjoying my shopping and I began to pay attention to my thoughts. I thought that the sales clerk was unhelpful. I asked a question about how to fashionably wear a piece that I was looking at and, to my ear, her answer seemed to say that there was something wrong with me if I had to ask.
I noticed that I began to feel out of place in this part of the store. The fashions were too stylish and seemed all to be designed for thin, rich people. It started to feel like the clerks were looking at me with an expression that said, “Buy in this department? In your dreams, chubby lady on a budget.” I began to feel resentful toward these women and I noticed I no longer smiled at them or anyone else. I was not friendly or kind. I was not extending love.
I asked the Holy Spirit for clarity and I remembered what I had heard Katie say right before I got out of the car. She said: Who would you be in people’s presence without, for example, the story that anyone should care about you, ever: You would be love itself. Why on earth would I care what anyone thought about me? That would be their business and not mine. They don’t know me; they only know their thoughts about me.
And while I am concerned about how they feel about me, I am so needy that I have no room for love, not for myself or for them. Look how many opportunities I missed to gladden the heart of my brother (and myself since there is only one of us) and all because I was imagining a story in which I cared what they thought when I walked by. (And really, it was a made up story since I have no idea what they were thinking anyway.)
I feel so grateful for that experience.