VIII. The Holy Meeting Place, P 3
3 Let your mind wander not through darkened corridors, away from light’s center. You and your brother may choose to lead yourselves astray, but you can be brought together only by the Guide appointed for you. He will surely lead you to where God and His Son await your recognition. They are joined in giving you the gift of oneness, before which all separation vanishes. Unite with what you are. You cannot join with anything except reality. God’s glory and His Son’s belong to you in truth. They have no opposite, and nothing else can you bestow upon yourself.
I want to return to the recognition of my Self, to awaken to my Oneness with God. Jesus is telling me three things in this paragraph to help me do this. He indicates that it is done in union with my brothers because the Son of God is all of us together. So I know that it is very important that I give up all grievances. Obviously, holding grievances will prevent me from returning to my Self because they prevent me from being in union with my One Whole Self.
A second thing he tells me is that I must not let my mind wander into the darkness, away from the light. I do this when I judge and believe in guilt, which of course, leads to grievances. In fact, what I am starting to notice is that Jesus talks to us about judgment, guilt, fear, anger, hatred, jealousy, grievances and all the ego effects, but really, they are all the same thing.
I can use the word guilt, and within that idea are all the other effects of listening to ego. I believe in guilt, which makes me afraid. I judge others and this makes me feel guilty and thus afraid. I am angry with someone and this triggers guilt, which leads to fear. It is all the same. Jesus uses the word forgiveness and it is the same as healing, accepting the Atonement, seeing it differently, and undoing. In fact, the longer I study A Course in Miracles, the simpler it becomes.
I think I am separate from God and from my brothers, and because I believe this, it appears to be true to me. I suffer the consequences of this belief until I am ready to awaken from it. Then I am led to the experiences that show me something else is available and that I want it. I see that my life is not at random and that I have done this to myself, but that it can be undone.
This leads to the third thing that Jesus is telling us in this paragraph. The way I return to the awareness of my Divinity and my Unity is through the Holy Spirit. As I look with the Holy Spirit rather than the ego mind, all is forgiven, I am healed, it is undone, and I see it differently. It is done for me, and the only way I get there is through Him. I dreamed of a different existence and then I wake up to what remains untouched and unaffected by my illusions. This is, literally, all that is happening.