Forgiveness offers everything I want.
What could you want forgiveness cannot give? Do you want peace? Forgiveness offers it. Do you want happiness, a quiet mind, a certainty of purpose, and a sense of worth and beauty that transcends the world? Do you want care and safety, and the warmth of sure protection always? Do you want a quietness that cannot be disturbed, a gentleness that never can be hurt, a deep, abiding comfort, and a rest so perfect it can never be upset?
All this forgiveness offers you, and more. It sparkles on your eyes as you awake, and gives you joy with which to meet the day. It soothes your forehead while you sleep, and rests upon your eyelids so you see no dreams of fear and evil, malice and attack. And when you wake again, it offers you another day of happiness and peace. All this forgiveness offers you, and more.
Forgiveness lets the veil be lifted up that hides the face of Christ from those who look with unforgiving eyes upon the world. It lets you recognize the Son of God, and clears your memory of all dead thoughts so that remembrance of your Father can arise across the threshold of your mind. What would you want forgiveness cannot give? What gifts but these are worthy to be sought? What fancied value, trivial effect or transient promise, never to be kept, can hold more hope than what forgiveness brings?
Why would you seek an answer other than the answer that will answer everything? Here is the perfect answer, given to imperfect questions, meaningless requests, halfhearted willingness to hear, and less than halfway diligence and partial trust. Here is the answer! Seek for it no more. You will not find another one instead.
God’s plan for your salvation cannot change, nor can it fail. Be thankful it remains exactly as He planned it. Changelessly it stands before you like an open door, with warmth and welcome calling from beyond the doorway, bidding you to enter in and make yourself at home, where you belong.
Here is the answer! Would you stand outside while all of Heaven waits for you within? Forgive and be forgiven. As you give you will receive. There is no plan but this for the salvation of the Son of God. Let us today rejoice that this is so, for here we have an answer, clear and plain, beyond deceit in its simplicity. All the complexities the world has spun of fragile cobwebs disappear before the power and the majesty of this extremely simple statement of the truth.
Here is the answer! Do not turn away in aimless wandering again. Accept salvation now. It is the gift of God, and not the world. The world can give no gifts of any value to a mind that has received what God has given as its own. God wills salvation be received today, and that the intricacies of your dreams no longer hide their nothingness from you.
Open your eyes today and look upon a happy world of safety and of peace. Forgiveness is the means by which it comes to take the place of hell. In quietness it rises up to greet your open eyes, and fill your heart with deep tranquility as ancient truths, forever newly born, arise in your awareness. What you will remember then can never be described. Yet your forgiveness offers it to you.
Remembering the gifts forgiveness gives, we undertake our practicing today with hope and faith that this will be the day salvation will be ours. Earnestly and gladly will we seek for it today, aware we hold the key within our hands, accepting Heaven’s answer to the hell we made, but where we would remain no more.
Morning and evening do we gladly give a quarter of an hour to the search in which the end of hell is guaranteed. Begin in hopefulness, for we have reached the turning point at which the road becomes far easier. And now the way is short that yet we travel. We are close indeed to the appointed ending of the dream.
Sink into happiness as you begin these practice periods, for they hold out the sure rewards of questions answered and what your acceptance of the answer brings. Today it will be given you to feel the peace forgiveness offers, and the joy the lifting of the veil holds out to you.
Before the light you will receive today the world will fade until it disappears, and you will see another world arise you have no words to picture. Now we walk directly into light, and we receive the gifts that have been held in store for us since time began, kept waiting for today.
Forgiveness offers everything you want. Today all things you want are given you. Let not your gifts recede throughout the day, as you return again to meet a world of shifting change and bleak appearances. Retain your gifts in clear awareness as you see the changeless in the heart of change; the light of truth behind appearances.
Be tempted not to let your gifts slip by and drift into forgetfulness, but hold them firmly in your mind by your attempts to think of them at least a minute as each quarter of an hour passes by. Remind yourself how precious are these gifts with this reminder, which has power to hold your gifts in your awareness through the day:
Forgiveness offers everything I want.
Today I have accepted this as true.
Today I have received the gifts of God.
Forgiveness offers everything I want. I can remind myself of this when I think that there is some value in being right or when I think I need to hold a grievance. But sometimes it feels like I just can’t find the thought that forgiveness is all I want as if I am in a dense jungle of ego thoughts and I know that the answer is just right there, but I can’t see it for all the other thoughts. I remember one time when that happened to me.
I was not in peace. I had been at a workshop all weekend, and when I got back, I allowed myself to be drawn into some drama going on at the church where I ministered at the time. I allowed myself to become part of the situation rather than remaining detached. I felt like I was fighting to keep my head above water and if I wasn’t very careful, I would drown in the ego. I knew there was also a lot going on at an unconscious level, but I didn’t understand what it meant.
I was feeling at turns weepy and angry. What I was able to do was to remember that I wanted to see this differently. I finally told Holy Spirit that I was willing to accept whatever was happening to me without understanding it, knowing He goes there with me. This was a pivotal moment for me. I went to sleep asking Him to teach me during the night whatever I had not been open to this day.
I woke up the next day with some thoughts about the day before. One of the things that came up for healing during the workshop I had just attended, was my need to feel like I am in control. I felt this very strongly, and I understood how important it is for me to let this go. If I need to be in control, I am not going to be fully open to guidance. I am limiting how much the Holy Spirit can help me.
As I write about this, it sounds like it is no big deal. I just let go of the need to control. But it was not easy allowing this to surface, and not easy to accept it. I had been thoroughly convinced that if I let go of control of my life, it would spin away and who knows what would happen. I could not contemplate it. So this was upsetting to me, and just thinking about it caused a lot of gut wrenching fear and stress.
I was in conflict about this healing. I wanted it because I wanted the peace of God. I didn’t want it because I wanted to be me, not some part of a God I didn’t fully trust. So there it was ego vs. spirit. When I got home, there was this drama going on at the church, and my first thought was that this would not have happened if I had been there.
And there it was again, my ego-self expressing its self-importance and need to exist. At the moment it was happening I didn’t catch that, I just thought that it was true. Then I went back and forth with the whole situation going from anger at what was said by different parties, to fear of getting caught in it and pressured to take sides, which I knew I could not. Yet, I felt myself take sides in my mind, and that was the same thing. Just because I didn’t claim a side out loud didn’t mean I was without error.
Now I am looking at all of this through saner eyes, and I see that it was a perfect set up to look at my crazy need to be in control. I brought into my life players who all felt they needed to be in control, and like me, each of them believed that the good of all depended on them being declared right. Each one felt just as strongly about their position being the only one that could be right, and each one felt justified in fighting for that position. A part of me wanted to jump right in there with, of course, the best solution.
I saw how easy it is to become part of this insanity, and I saw what it looks like when it runs rampant. I saw that I was eager to join in the madness, and yet because I had made the commitment to surrender to God, I was also able to return my mind to the Holy Spirit from time to time during the day. It was a very uncomfortable day for me, but it was also helpful to see the harm it does when we choose that option.
I gave my sleep to the Holy Spirit, and when I woke up, I saw everything clearly and knew that, indeed, the day before I had projected into my life my conflicted thoughts about control. When I had gone to sleep that night, I did so thinking that a lot of people were guilty of upsetting my day. I woke up knowing that no one had done anything to me. I had chosen my upset. I forgave myself, them, and the entire situation as I realized that nothing actually happened. I felt so grateful for this clarity.
My message from Holy Spirit
Myron, thank you for your persistence. It would have been easy for you to give in to the idea of being right, and of needing to regain some control over the situation, but you, instead, returned your mind to Me over and over. Do not be concerned about the ego thoughts that came to tempt you. They mean nothing unless you give them meaning. In allowing Me to join you, these ego thoughts became part of your learning process.
Your brothers all seemed to be guilty as you looked at what they were doing and saying. But I assure you that each one is perfectly innocent. Anything that seemed less than innocent is just a call for love. Join me in giving them what they ask for, Myron. They do not need your efforts to get everything lined up and working smoothly. They do not need anyone to show them the error of their ways. They need only to be loved and to be shown their innocence. This is the only response that is required. Your brothers have much to teach you, and you owe them your gratitude for their willingness to do so.
Heaven is grateful to you, too, Myron, for your vigilance for the truth, and for your decision to surrender. This surrender may still feel like a loss to you, but as you practice, you will see that there is no loss in Heaven. You will see that you were trying to hang onto smoke. It was not only impossible to do; it was not worth doing. Instead of joining with an illusion, you now join with God. This is the forgiveness process.
My message to Holy Spirit
At the time of this incident, it did not feel as if I were succeeding in anything but making myself miserable. Now I see what was happening and more than ever I am willing to accept that control is just an illusion to be forgiven. Please help me to practice this until I have no more doubts and no more temptation to try to wrest control from Heaven. Help me to remember what a silly notion this is.