VII. Sharing Perception with the Holy Spirit, P 6
6 The Holy Spirit asks of you but this; bring to Him every secret you have locked away from Him. Open every door to Him, and bid Him enter the darkness and lighten it away. At your request He enters gladly. He brings the light to darkness if you make the darkness open to Him. But what you hide He cannot look upon. He sees for you, and unless you look with Him He cannot see. The vision of Christ is not for Him alone, but for Him with you. Bring, therefore, all your dark and secret thoughts to Him, and look upon them with Him. He holds the light, and you the darkness. They cannot coexist when both of you together look on them. His judgment must prevail, and He will give it to you as you join your perception to His.
Clearly, if we would like to have a healed mind there are only two things we need to do. We need to expose all our dark thoughts to the Holy Spirit, hiding nothing from Him. And we must look at them with Him. This is all. It seems our part in this process is very limited. If we are willing to do this without exception, we will experience true perception, and true perception will allow us to awaken to a happy dream and to help others awaken as well.
When I think about this it seems like I am willing to surrender all dark thoughts and to do it now! And I am, but every once in a while I come across thoughts that seem so confused I cannot look with Holy Spirit. I can’t seem to unravel my thinking enough to do this simple step. Each time this happens, I work through the issue, asking Holy Spirit for greater clarity. Each time, what I discover is that I was hiding the truth because I didn’t want to give it up.
When this happens it is always because I think there is some value in holding onto a particular belief. For instance, sometimes I think I need a guilt thought because I need someone besides me to be guilty. Guilt confuses and frightens, and so keeps the mind clouded. The ego could not long hold my attention if my mind were clear. That is why my work now is to allow Holy Spirit to clear my mind. The light of Heaven will shine away the darkness of the ego’s confused thinking.
There are ways I can tell that I am hiding something from myself and the Holy Spirit. Sickness is one of those ways. If I hold onto a dark thought long enough, I wind up projecting my unconscious guilt onto the image that is my body. Sometimes it is sadness, or anger, or fear that alert me, sometimes just a lump in my throat. When I see that I must be confused again, I do what it takes to get to the bottom of it.
Sometimes I use a Byron Katie worksheet to unravel my thinking. Sometimes I do root cause inquiry, or I use Rules for Decision, or the Choose Again process. Sometimes, I just tell Holy Spirit that I am willing to look at the problem with Him, and I want to do it now. I tell Him that the ego is afraid of this, but I am not the ego and I want this done. However, I do it, I always eventually do the work, and nowadays I do it quickly. I like a clear mind. I like being free of ego thinking.