VII. Sharing Perception with the Holy Spirit, P 2
2 The search for truth is but the honest searching out of everything that interferes with truth. Truth is. It can neither be lost nor sought nor found. It is there, wherever you are, being within you. Yet it can be recognized or unrecognized, real or false to you. If you hide it, it becomes unreal to you because you hid it and surrounded it with fear. Under each cornerstone of fear on which you have erected your insane system of belief, the truth lies hidden. Yet you cannot know this, for by hiding truth in fear, you see no reason to believe that the more you look at fear the less you see it, and the clearer what it conceals becomes.
It is interesting to me that the lesson I am doing today (Lesson 138) says much the same thing. Truth is true and nothing else is true. We don’t really have to seek out truth, but merely uncover it, because truth is all there is. What interferes with truth is not real, simply something we believe.
My experience has been that once I decide I want to see the interference, it is completely obvious. When I don’t want to see it, everything is murky and confusing. Since it cannot be both obvious and murky, it must be that it appears as I want it to appear. Why is it that I would ever choose to be deliberately confused?
Jesus says that we hide it because we are afraid of the truth. I know a young girl who has lived a terrifying life. Now she is in a safe place where she is loved and protected, and yet, though she wants to be loved, she is afraid of love and resists it. When love is too overwhelming, she lashes out at the one loving her. She has been taught that she doesn’t deserve love and so when she receives it, her sense of unworthiness keeps her from accepting love, and it even triggers fear.
Watching her behavior, seeing her defend against love, helped me to understand that we all do the same thing. We all defend against the Love that is God. Who feels worthy of such unconditional, universal love? I think I can say that I feel worthy of this love, and yet, if I did then why would I hide from it? Why would I believe in guilt and fear if I knew that the truth is I am loved beyond measure by my Creator, that I am forgiven all things and that I am the only one who thinks I need forgiveness?
So I search honestly for everything that interferes with truth. I watch my mind for any thought that I am unworthy, that I am judged, that I am unforgiven. When I find those thoughts, I give them to the Holy Spirit and allow them to be corrected. This is how I uncover the truth that is in me, and therefore could never actually be lost to me.