IX. The Cloud of Guilt, P 1
1 Guilt remains the only thing that hides the Father, for guilt is the attack upon His Son. The guilty always condemn, and having done so they will still condemn, linking the future to the past as is the ego’s law. Fidelity to this law lets no light in, for it demands fidelity to darkness and forbids awakening. The ego’s laws are strict, and breaches are severely punished. Therefore give no obedience to its laws, for they are laws of punishment. And those who follow them believe that they are guilty, and so they must condemn. Between the future and the past the laws of God must intervene, if you would free yourself. Atonement stands between them, like a lamp shining so brightly that the chain of darkness in which you bound yourself will disappear.
“Guilt is the only thing that hides the Father, for guilt is the attack upon His Son.”
Over and over, Jesus tells us that guilt is something we must let go. We must let go of placing guilt on others and of believing we are guilty. Both are attacks on the Son of God and hide from us the awareness of God. Guilt is what keeps us from peace and happiness, and keeps us from remembering Love. It is the cause of all suffering and the reason we choose death over God.
“The guilty always condemn, and having done so they will still condemn, linking the future to the past as is the ego’s law.”
Here is how that works. When everything changed at work, I felt resentful. I projected the blame for my feelings on my boss and everyone else. I made them guilty of my unhappiness with my situation. The thought that they were guilty stained everything they did. It was like their actions were passing through a dark filter and all that came through was stained with guilt.
I interpreted their words and actions from the standpoint that they were guilty, and so what they said and did seemed wrong to me and I felt further resentment. Not only that, but I expected to be attacked. I thought about what they would do next and how that would affect me. I was linking the future to the past, and thus sustaining the ego.
“Atonement stands between them, like a lamp shining so brightly that the chain of darkness in which you bound yourself will disappear.”
This went on for as long as I could stand it. Finally, my desire for peace kicked in and I asked for healing. I accepted that healing, that is, I accepted the atonement for this situation and the beliefs that were driving it. It was truly as Jesus says, the Atonement stood between the past and the future and broke the dark chain of guilt. I began to hear and see differently.
They suddenly seemed like friends instead of enemies and in the time we have had together I have learned that I like them and enjoy working with them. I am going to be happy to retire, but at the same time, I wish I had more time to spend with these people. It is truly a miracle when we accept the Atonement. I am going to be eternally grateful for this experience, both because I will leave that job with all relationships healed, and because I will never forget the lesson I learned about letting go of guilt.