VII. Attainment of the Real World, P 8
8 The peace of God passeth your understanding only in the past. Yet here it is, and you can understand it now. God loves His Son forever, and His Son returns his Father’s Love forever. The real world is the way that leads you to remembrance of the one thing that is wholly true and wholly yours. For all else you have lent yourself in time, and it will fade. But this one thing is always yours, being the gift of God unto His Son. Your one reality was given you, and by it God created you as one with Him.
I can have the peace of God right now and in having it I can understand it. But it must be now, not in the nowhere time of the past or the future. That is why I am forming the habit of noticing when I am in the past or the future and then making a decision to be in the present moment. At first it felt like an impossible task, but now it is easier. As I stay more in the present, I am more in the presence of Love and that is a powerful motivation.
I have been sending my son encouraging text messages once a day while he is going through this difficult time. He hasn’t answered me this week. The ego mind is making up all kinds of dreadful stories. Then I heard something very upsetting about a niece and that added to my sense of dread. The ego stories quickly pile up and take on a heaviness that they don’t actually have.
But I am also aware of what is happening. About the time I start to feel desperate, I remember that this is a story. It is an illusion and not actually happening. I am watching the story and my son and my niece are watching their stories. I ask for a different way to view this, a way I can detach from them. I suddenly had the memory of a section I read in The Afterlife of Billy Fingers. He was watching scenes from his life, not with guilt or fear but with interest. I felt like that memory was made available to me in answer to my prayer. I am willing to watch this story and all my seeming errors without fear and guilt and only with interest.
I was also reminded that I could look at the future that the ego stories point to, or I can return to the present moment where I will find the peace of God. That is my choice and one I make in every moment. After all, what is actually happening in this moment? I am not at peace because I am imagining some other moment. Right now, right this moment I reside in God’s Love. Nothing can touch me here.