I do not understand anything I see in this room
[on this street, from this window, in this place].
Apply this idea in the same way as the previous ones, without making distinctions of any kind. Whatever you see becomes a proper subject for applying the idea. Be sure that you do not question the suitability of anything for application of the idea. These are not exercises in judgment. Anything is suitable if you see it. Some of the things you see may have emotionally charged meaning for you. Try to lay such feelings aside, and merely use these things exactly as you would anything else.
The point of the exercises is to help you clear your mind of all past associations, to see things exactly as they appear to you now, and to realize how little you really understand about them. It is therefore essential that you keep a perfectly open mind, unhampered by judgment, in selecting the things to which the idea for the day is to be applied. For this purpose one thing is like another; equally suitable and therefore equally useful.
I do not understand anything I see. Why is it important that I know this? If I think I understand anything, none of these lessons are going to be meaningful to me. My mind is crowded with all sorts of meanings. I made an image based on a desire. That desire is based on meaning that I believe in. I look at the image I have made and I think I know something about it. I believe in what I have been taught and what I have experienced in the past.
Am I trying to erase all those thoughts to make room for something else? No. I am trying to get used to the idea that all those thoughts are meaningless so that I would be willing to disregard them. How can I really believe that I don’t understand anything I see if I believe I know what it means? I am beginning the process of becoming a blank slate so that I can be given truth rather than perception.
How do I feel about this? I used to be afraid of the idea of surrendering my meaning, as if without my judgments there will be no me. Now I am not really afraid anymore, but I do see ideas in my mind that I am attached to. I also continue to experience the separate will and notice that I am somewhat reluctant to let it go completely. I must still believe that my separate will, and my meanings are valuable to me.
On the other hand, I am glad to do this lesson today. I am glad to be reminded that I don’t understand anything I see, and that if I am willing to let go of what I think I know, I will be given something that is actually valuable. I will not disappear when my mistaken judgments disappear. On the contrary, I will be revealed.
Can I make myself not know what I know about the tree outside my window? Can I stop myself having an opinion about that tree? No. But what I can do is be willing to let go of my ideas and allow my mind to be healed. It might not sound important that I release what I think I understand about a tree, but if I hold onto my meaning I have rejected true meaning.
Could it matter what the image is? If I hold onto my understanding of the tree, I am saying in essence, “Thanks anyway, Holy Spirit, I got this one. I understand this tree. I don’t need your help on this one. I’ll get back to you when I get confused about something.” Obviously, if I think an image of a tree is different than an image of anything else; bigger, smaller; better, worse; more important or less, then I am already confused.
“Holy Spirit, I cannot clear the confused thoughts from my mind and so I will not try to do so. However, I open my mind to You. I really want to be free of what I have made. I want to see the world from Your Mind. Please remove from my mind all that is not true.”